# 48 Bento on the plate - little girl

Month end was always a busy time.  There's also a project going on and makes me even busier. I'm glad I'm able to post this now. I don't really have the mood after the closing till now.  The month end weekend, little boy was sick with vomiting due to stomach flu.  I was busy the full day wiping, cleaning, cooking porridge, feeding him, checking his temperature as he has fever too.  I brought him, carrying him, 15kg now, to a nearby clinic.  I was all alone. He's very heavy to me now.. I can't really carry him when we came back then, as I've to walk up the slope. 

I felt pain looking at him vomiting still after taking the medicine.  He was also complaining pain and sick.  I tried to feed him probiotic but he vomited that too.. It's like full noon till almost night time, he has been very weak and feverish.  Only at night, he was better and I felt better then. 

During the noon time, I felt that sad feeling again... handling things alone, as if nobody wanted me.  It happened long ago, after my first child... maybe that is called depression stage?  I was alone too handling my first born during the weekends.  My mom doesn't wish to see my little baby then at home as she had already taken care of her during the weekdays.  So me and my little baby then stayed home alone.  Being a first time mother is not easy and worst still alone at home handling everything myself.  Maybe because of that, every time when I handle my kids alone, especially when they are sick, I feel very down. That 'not wanted / not being loved' kind of feelings haunt me again. 

I just need that care and love from someone, but nobody is around :(  it gets worst when not treated.  I will feel like even ending my life.  It was only treated when someone hug and kissed me, of course that has to come from my love ones!  :)   Also turning to the bible... which I've not been looking at it for some time.  I told myself I have to go back there to dig the treasure.. for peace of mind

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5,6

So today only am posting this... bento on the plate with rice, peas on the pod, capsicums, carrots, chicken.

# 47 Elephant in the forest

43 Likes on my facebook for this piece of art ... am so happy :)  This idea just came about when I was half awake early in the morning.  It really needs a 'little light bulb' and inspiration to do this .. LOL

Of course my little darling saw this and was smiling, asking me how I did the trees.. I told her to check out that I slot in the little greens into the carrots by cutting a line in the carrots.  She then said 'You are so smart'!  LOL

I actually wanted to cook noodles or rice bento for her, but she told me just simple breakfast of bread will do and that's what she prefers. So that's how this come about.

Watched this at night.. SL sent this to me http://vimeo.com/95876067
While watching this, I really feel so awesome about the full video.. the fun in diving, the admiration on the fishes, corals, sea creatures.. everytime I look at the photos or videos of underwater creatures.. I just feel so speechless.... no words can describe how I feel. Mesmerized .... that urge of seeing them is more.. ok I got poison by SL! LOL

# 46 Live for Love 為愛而活

I've finally found the song I've heard at Semporna.  Thanks to SL..  It's 張韶涵 為愛而活


Especially like these words...

Reality against imagination, there is wound but no blood
How do you get through the soundless nights?

Evasion has no exit, but who dares to admit their guilt?
Courage is the only escape

I'm in control of my future
I believe in tomorrow

I had a great night yesterday talking out what's on my mind these few days... Yes, being guilty.. feeling guilty is really worst feeling of all.  Unwanted things that happened but as if you get all the 'credit', is no joke.  You never asked for it.... 

Chauvinist, I can't stand.  Those who really know me, knows me well that I'm in control of my life.. what I want to do, what I like to do.. I don't give it a damn on what people talk behind of me or trying to talk as if they are right when they are wrong!

It is not about 'not appreciating' but it is about 'feeling sincerely guilty'... How can you live life with guilt...It is taking away my peace ..... I have to tell myself, not to be affected by this.  This 'guilt' will haunt me... I need that peace...

Live for love.. is to live your life better and healthier for your love ones!   Whoever love you, wishes to see you happy, healthy, live longer.... more than anything else.

Everyone is in control of their own life and future.

# 24 Omelette

Breakfast for my lil' sister when she's here for holiday.. Black pepper ham, Japanese omelette, bruschetta with garlic butter and cheese, sausage and black olive.  Fruits are strawberries, raspberries, plum.. but the raspberries taste like medicine!

# 22 All my Bento

I've been away from home.. and now in a new home in Singapore and was not able to post all the bentos I've done, until today.  Here are all of them :)  done in Malaysia.  Have a good day! 

# 21 Cheesy mashed eggs with strawberries

Monday is always a rush day and so mashed eggs is the easiest and fastest breakfast you can do.  Just using the bear and penguin cutter and some small round cutters here you can have your cheese being cut nicely into cute bear and penguin.  I put a slice of seaweed just right below the cheese to contrast the color.  Some strawberries with lovely cats and dogs pick.  Lil' girl is going to have school holiday on May 17 and after that will be exam week.  Hope she do well in her exam.

My allergy on the right leg, ankle area which causes my leg to swell like a pig's leg has now subsided and no more itchy.  It was a tough time not to scratch it when it's sooooo itchy, you know? LOL  Well, I'm glad that God has arranged my trip to Singapore being postponed, else it'll be really bad for my leg then... as I'll need to walk a lot :)

# 20 Lovey cheese on mashed eggs

Today bento is just lovey cheese on top of mashed eggs with soya sauce.  The blue packet is Hello Panda biscuits bought from Shojikiya and fruits are just strawberries.  As you can see here my lil' girl looks so excited, cos the Hello Panda is her favourite!!  

She's currently having cough and last few days, she lost her voice.  Hopefully she'll recover soon. Hope my allergic leg will recover soon too :)  Pray that all are healthy and happy :)  That's da most important thing in life!

# 19 Bearry cheese biscuits and crabby orange

This bento was done some time ago and just didn't manage to post it since I was quite busy. So this bento consists of Bear Bear cheese on biscuits where the eyes and nose are made of raisins and mouth is just from the cucumber :)  Fruits for today is Crabby Orange and some strawberries.  Salad is mine, where the orange is decorated like a mickey mouse and little egg mouse with lettuce, cucumbers and strawberries.

My sprained right ankle was wrapped for a week and now I'm having allergy.. so no mood to make such lovely bento for a while :(    It's sooooooooo so itchyy!!   yet having medication makes me having gastric pain ..oh what a month

# 18 Garlic bread

The top bento is supposed to be bruschetta but I run out of time and so it is just a garlic bread then LOL. Both bento having strawberries and prune for the day. Since my camera was sent for repair, these was taken by hubby's handphone :)  

My lil' girl do not like garlic but when I mix it with the butter, she just love it.  However I have to cook the garlic till it's soft with some olive oil and butter.  Just to ensure she eats some garlic, it's worth to do this.

Work has been fine but I'm waiting for some news where I'm supposed to get it earlier..but it seems I didn't get any news yet!!!  What happened? Am I or am I not to ..........   ????  well I just have to wait still

# 17 Good Friday & Easter day!

Good Friday & Easter Day were not a holiday here but of course it is still celebrated :)  Last Friday, I did this cheese bunny on seaweed and mashed eggs. The rest are apples and strawberries.  Am happy that my lil' girl finished her portion :D

It's been a busy week and so am only able to post this tonight.  Hope everyone enjoy their Good Friday & Easter holiday!  I need to sleep now ..zzZZzzzZZZzzz

# 16 Mashed egg with cucumber sushi bread

Mashed egg with cucumber sushi bread is my lil' girl's favourite or I should say anything with egg, she'll just love them.  Fruits are strawberries and dragonballs ..I mean dragonfruits but she doesn't like the taste of dragon fruits.

She has a bit of cough and also sound having flu.  So I was giving her pure cod liver oil - Seven Seas and honey. Hopefully it works well.  Now watching TLC while updating this.. :)  Seldom have such privilege to watch the channel I want.  Since everybody is out, except me and my kids, so this is the chance!!!

# 15 Bunny & Monster Orange with Mashed Potatoes

Today's breakfast for two lil' angels are mashed potatoes with lil' bunny & lil' monster orange.  The small cheese sandwiches were the creation from my little girl who is excited to use the new tools that I bought.

Mom is still away in Korea.  So I've got to take leave to take care of two lil' angels.  As usual, the lil' boy likes to watch Barney and now BARBIE tooooo!!! LOL since the sister always watch Barbie. 

# 14 Beary sandwich

Little beary sandwich with ham and cheese. 2 little prunes and oranges for my little girl. She was asking me, where is the ear??  LOL  I think I need to be well prepared before hand. 

She's having tuition nowadays.. can you imagine kinder also need tuitions? woww isn't that a bit too much and it's recommended by the teachers.  Sometimes it makes me think bout whether the kids nowadays really enjoy their childhood? or they are now competing with each other and who are those who make them compete? Maybe Malaysian are getting the symptom like Singaporean?  Or maybe nowadays you only have a kid or two and so you wish that they will be smarter and etc etc etc.....

Both of my little ones are doing fine this week except me.  I am still having a swollen ankle and I just went to see the Chinese Urut.  Well I hope it does cure this pain that I have for almost, going to be 2 weeks.  Just pray that my right leg will be fine soon and there's no need for MRI nor operation...which sounds scary!!

Mom is away till next Wednesday in Korea and I hope everything is fine there.  I just heard that the school have closed due to the fear of radioactive rain.  Sad to hear bout that and also bout Japan pouring the radiation water to the sea. :(

xxxxx

# 13 Bird in the mashed potatoes

Since I sprain my leg last week, I did not do much of bento for my girl.  My right leg is now slimmer, not so swollen so it looks slim a bit but still not as slim as the left leg LOL.  I can even see the blue black + red color (blood) on that right leg.  Tomorrow am taking leave for 3 days and going for physio at UH and checkup at DSH and finally visiting the dentist.. it's all scheduled in this 3 days, since mom is going for Korea trip!  So hope she enjoy her trip.. well, I'm sure she will.

Back to my bento, normally, for mash potatoes, I'll steam the potatoes for 30mins and then add in butter + milk + salt. So for this bento, my best friend was telling me to use cream cheese instead of milk and boil it instead of steam.  My girl love this very much.. well her favourite is potatoes!! especially french fries!!! With this mash potatoes, the 2 little container is with chicken gravy.  She ate it all in the car before she even reaches the kinder LOL.  The other bento is just half an orange and a prune.

I did try to have garlic mashed in her potatoes but she doesn't like it.. the reason is, she just don't like garlic! Below is the recipe I found somewhere that I've forgotten where it is from.. well, enjoy :)

Garlic Mashed Potatoes

1 lb potatoes (2 large)
2 cups skim milk / non fat / whole milk
2 large cloves garlic, chopped
1/2 teaspoon white pepper

Peel potatoes, cut in quarters.  Cook, covered, in a small amount of boiling water for 20 to 25mins or until tender.  Remove from heat. Drain and cover the pot.

In saucepan, over low heat, cook the garlic in milk until garlic is soft about 30mins.  Add milk-garlic mixture with white pepper to potatoes.  Mash the potatoes until smooth.

# 12 Sunshine day

Today my little girl wanted to have noodles and so I've wake up earlier to cook her this fried mee suah with eggs and starry starry cucumber.  The sunshine is from this orange, where it's decorated with again my hand peel corn LOL

Well, today is not really a very sunshine day and everyone also seems to be sick. So I hope this sunshine will brighten up our day.  Hope everyone will get well soon, include myself hahaha.  The skin on my girl's finger is still... peeling :(  and today she told me it's pain already and still having a sexy voice herself.  ^_^

Her daddy is away out of country since yesterday night and will be back maybe only tomorrow night.  Hope he's having a safe journey back. Hope my girl will be better tomorrow. God bless!

# 11 Swiss roll with corn & fruits

 

Little swiss roll with corn, where it was hand peeled one by one for my little girl. Fruits, there's orange and banana where it's cut into star shape and a prune.  This is a double deck bento box and so I've wrapped it like a present for her to bring to school.  All her classmates love this little 'present' LOL.

My girl are having allergy during the weekend.  Her hand's skin was peeling and we brought her to see the doctor to get some cream.  Doctor was saying  that she has a strong virus infection which is why she's having this problem and last week with rashes and swollen eyes.  It's not really on what she eat nor the medicine as she did not even take any antibiotics.  Doctor advised her not to use any soap to wash her hands but instead plain water and ensure that it's dry.  Hope her skin will be well soon.  I'm worried bout it... ^_^

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# 10 Lovey dovey eggs and apples

I was away for 3 days in Singapore and came back with a blank mind.  However I remember another bento lover advised me how to make this apple with the love shape.  Instead of cutting out the love shape, I punch in with the love cutter and peel the rest of the skin ^v^ The egg omelette are cut into love shape too and so that's why we have this lovey dovey name.

Well, we are all very blessed. I always feel that I'm always lucky. No matter what happen, there's always a reason for things to happen.  Something happened for a better tomorrow maybe.

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# 9 Mash egg with soya biscuits

Since I do not have any bread so I thought to use the soya biscuits for my girl's breakfast.  Last year onwards, she's a bit lactose intolerance.  I suspected is due to yoghurt.  So we have stopped all milk base food and then slowly investigate the milk base food that she took. It's quite expensive to find non milk base food.

In between the biscuits are mash egg and I've added her favourite star cornflakes.  The apple and bananas are cut into tree shape.  Salad is mine again LOL

Friday March 11, I was having mix feelings. ..happy and sad on my personal things.  Happy to receive a news but sad as I'll miss a lot of people around me.  I'll be moving on to another country soon.  When you thought there's still a long way to go, you may take things for granted.  When out of sudden, it happened and you need to go, ...just feel that .. am I dreaming? ..slowly the fear came out of me. I've been with my family all the while.  Have not thought of leaving them. However, I tell myself that I'll do my best ^v^

# 8 Bug

Friday was the happiest weekday right? Somehow my mind was a bit blank.  So made this salad and fruits only.  Salad is a bug bug with hard boiled egg, sweet corn, apple, banana, coral lettuce. As for my girl, she likes to bring butter cookies and her Hello Panda.  Am trying to do a rabbit for her in this apple but doesn't really look like it LOL.. then with bananas for her fruits pack.

March 11, Friday was not a good day for Japan. The earthquake of 8.9-magnitude struck 373 kilometers (231) miles away at the city of Sendai. Strongest earthquake and tsunami in Japan.  Really a sad disaster #_#
Luckily my friends are safe there.  Hope everything is fine with them..buildings destroyed can be slowly build, but not life.  We are all very lucky to be alive. Pray for Japan

# 7 Biscuits cookies & fruits

My little girl wants to have biscuits and cookies for her breakfast, so she went and dig into the tins and search for her favourites!  Salad is for me ^o^  I think you may have noticed it is almost in my everyday breakfast.

I've used the love shape cutter to trim the apples that I've sliced in round shape. The two in front was using a flower shape cutter. See below, it's so lovely