# 50 Crabby in the house!

There's a crabby in the house! He always crab crab crab (cry cry cry) LOL even though he's already 6!  I wonder when will he stop....

Each kids will have their own character and attitude, so does their strength and weaknesses.  Crabby is very crabby but he is a very loving mouse!  My little mouse will always say these three things to me before he goes to sleep "mummy, remember to gargle "blue water" (oral rinse), exercise and pray to God".  As usual, before I go to sleep, I will brush my teeth, gargle with "blue water", do some exercise on the bed and pray to God.  However, sometimes I might forget to do those.. and he is my reminder every night, without fail.  Even at times I have to work late and told him to sleep first, he will then walked in to his room... Not long, he will walk out to the living room, and tell me these three important things.. isn't he cute and lovely!  

When he needed something, he will persuade for the things he wanted.  If your answer is NO, he will come back again few minutes later and beg you 'Please please mummy" with his hands in praying mode!  LOL  .. He is a boy full of determination, passion, persistency!   I only wish that he has a bit more patience :)

# 49 Happy bunny!

Happy Bunny is an impromptu idea came out from my sleep, again.  My mind always get active at night... so does this creative thinking too.  I don't have much time to really make a bento for my darling that day, as she's in a hurry to go out.  However, I still want to proceed with my bento and cheer up someone.  So I present this to Kelly, my housemate, who have been staying with us for almost a year soon.  She put this in her tupperware and it transform into a doggie :) cute right?

Some people may not realize that....Happiness comes from giving.  I find that very true.  Below story is not written by me and I've no idea who is the author, but it's something good to ponder.

This story is about a beautiful, expensively dressed lady who complained to her psychiatrist that she felt that her whole life was empty, it had no meaning.

So, the lady went to visit a counselor to seek out happiness. The counselor called over the old lady who cleaned the office floors.  The counselor then said to the rich lady "I'm going to ask Mary here to tell you how she found happiness. All I want you to do is listen to her."

So the old lady put down her broom and sat on a chair and told her story:
"Well, my husband died of malaria and three months later my only son was killed by a car. I had nobody... I had nothing left. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I never smiled at anyone, I even thought of taking my own life.

Then one evening a little kitten followed me home from work. Somehow I felt sorry for that kitten. It was cold outside, so I decided to let the kitten in. I got it some milk, and the kitten licked the plate clean.

Then it purred and rubbed against my leg and for the first time in months, I smiled. Then I stopped to think, if helping a little kitten could make me smile, maybe doing something for people could make me happy. So the next day I baked some biscuits and took them to a neighbor who was sick in bed.

Every day I tried to do something nice for someone. It made me so happy to see them happy. Today, I don't know of anybody who sleeps and eats better than I do. I've found happiness, by giving it to others."

When she heard that the rich lady cried. She had everything that money could buy, but she had lost the things which money cannot buy.

Love, Faith and Hope

I saw this on the facebook page and would like to be reminded on this piece... that Love, Faith and Hope is what we need in this world to have a better place. 


In 1902, a professor asked his student whether it was God who created everything that exists in the universe ?
Student replied: Yes

He again asked: what about evil ?
Has God created evil also?
The student got silent....
Then the student requested that may he ask a question for him?
Professor allowed him to do so.
He asked: Does cold exist
Professor said : yes ! Dont u feel the cold dear
Student said: I'm sorry but ur wrong sir.
Cold is a complete absence of heat..
There is no cold, it is only an absence of heat.
Student asked again: Does darkness exist ?
Professor said: yes !
Student replied: ur again wrong sir.
There is no such thing like darkness. Its actually the absence of light. Sir ! We always study light & heat, but not cold & darkness.
Similarly, the evil does not exist.
Actually it is the absence of love, faith & true belief in God.
That student was Albert Einstien...!

Diving habits & Free diving

Earlier, I've been looking and reading these links..

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10151808819429169&set=vb.84669894168&type=2&theater

http://scubadiverlife.com/2014/05/05/maintaining-good-diving-habits/

I think cos of diving also, I feel like learning more things in my life.  Doing some of the things I would like to do.  I know I'm old in age, but am still young at heart! :)   During the diving course, the dive master couldn't believe my age when he saw my date of birth!   It's a good sign.. I haven't really age much according to my age.. LOL

Well, there's no age limit in learning.. as long as you want to learn, just go ahead! So that's what am doing. 

# 48 Bento on the plate - little girl

Month end was always a busy time.  There's also a project going on and makes me even busier. I'm glad I'm able to post this now. I don't really have the mood after the closing till now.  The month end weekend, little boy was sick with vomiting due to stomach flu.  I was busy the full day wiping, cleaning, cooking porridge, feeding him, checking his temperature as he has fever too.  I brought him, carrying him, 15kg now, to a nearby clinic.  I was all alone. He's very heavy to me now.. I can't really carry him when we came back then, as I've to walk up the slope. 

I felt pain looking at him vomiting still after taking the medicine.  He was also complaining pain and sick.  I tried to feed him probiotic but he vomited that too.. It's like full noon till almost night time, he has been very weak and feverish.  Only at night, he was better and I felt better then. 

During the noon time, I felt that sad feeling again... handling things alone, as if nobody wanted me.  It happened long ago, after my first child... maybe that is called depression stage?  I was alone too handling my first born during the weekends.  My mom doesn't wish to see my little baby then at home as she had already taken care of her during the weekdays.  So me and my little baby then stayed home alone.  Being a first time mother is not easy and worst still alone at home handling everything myself.  Maybe because of that, every time when I handle my kids alone, especially when they are sick, I feel very down. That 'not wanted / not being loved' kind of feelings haunt me again. 

I just need that care and love from someone, but nobody is around :(  it gets worst when not treated.  I will feel like even ending my life.  It was only treated when someone hug and kissed me, of course that has to come from my love ones!  :)   Also turning to the bible... which I've not been looking at it for some time.  I told myself I have to go back there to dig the treasure.. for peace of mind

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5,6

So today only am posting this... bento on the plate with rice, peas on the pod, capsicums, carrots, chicken.

# 47 Elephant in the forest

43 Likes on my facebook for this piece of art ... am so happy :)  This idea just came about when I was half awake early in the morning.  It really needs a 'little light bulb' and inspiration to do this .. LOL

Of course my little darling saw this and was smiling, asking me how I did the trees.. I told her to check out that I slot in the little greens into the carrots by cutting a line in the carrots.  She then said 'You are so smart'!  LOL

I actually wanted to cook noodles or rice bento for her, but she told me just simple breakfast of bread will do and that's what she prefers. So that's how this come about.

Watched this at night.. SL sent this to me http://vimeo.com/95876067
While watching this, I really feel so awesome about the full video.. the fun in diving, the admiration on the fishes, corals, sea creatures.. everytime I look at the photos or videos of underwater creatures.. I just feel so speechless.... no words can describe how I feel. Mesmerized .... that urge of seeing them is more.. ok I got poison by SL! LOL

熟男有惑

I seldom watch Hong Kong Drama nowadays compare to when I was in Malaysia.  I only watched it when I was sick or else when I was travelling or back from holiday to relax.  Recently I've just finished watching this drama  熟男有惑

After watching this movie, I really like a few characters in the movie..
Solo, on what he did quietly on a lot of things that helped his friends around but he never ever want to reveal it or claim credit for it
Kay, on her stubbornness ..but is actually her determination and persistent in things she believed
Ming, live his life freely and stylishly!
Honey, on all the things that she can do... driving a bike, dive, rock climbing, driving a boat, ...
Totally admire this 王君馨  .. especially this dance! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nz0sb-bF2wA


Saw this nice photos from facebook today.... really admire both the photographer and the model too..

Galileo Show 完全拆解裸模倒奶的攝影創作
http://www.photoblog.hk/wordpress/83226/galileo-show-%E5%AE%8C%E5%85%A8%E6%8B%86%E8%A7%A3%E8%A3%B8%E6%A8%A1%E5%80%92%E5%A5%B6%E7%9A%84%E6%94%9D%E5%BD%B1%E5%89%B5%E4%BD%9C?fb_action_ids=10152839109319056&fb_action_types=og.likes

# 46 Live for Love 為愛而活

I've finally found the song I've heard at Semporna.  Thanks to SL..  It's 張韶涵 為愛而活


Especially like these words...

Reality against imagination, there is wound but no blood
How do you get through the soundless nights?

Evasion has no exit, but who dares to admit their guilt?
Courage is the only escape

I'm in control of my future
I believe in tomorrow

I had a great night yesterday talking out what's on my mind these few days... Yes, being guilty.. feeling guilty is really worst feeling of all.  Unwanted things that happened but as if you get all the 'credit', is no joke.  You never asked for it.... 

Chauvinist, I can't stand.  Those who really know me, knows me well that I'm in control of my life.. what I want to do, what I like to do.. I don't give it a damn on what people talk behind of me or trying to talk as if they are right when they are wrong!

It is not about 'not appreciating' but it is about 'feeling sincerely guilty'... How can you live life with guilt...It is taking away my peace ..... I have to tell myself, not to be affected by this.  This 'guilt' will haunt me... I need that peace...

Live for love.. is to live your life better and healthier for your love ones!   Whoever love you, wishes to see you happy, healthy, live longer.... more than anything else.

Everyone is in control of their own life and future.

Life is simple

Proverbs 3:5-6 

Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. 

Amen

Yesterday, I pretended I was Honey and did something that I've never done before. Fixing the washrooms light for the first time. I feel great being like a guy, able to do this things myself .... Maybe one day I don't need a man at all lol 

Suddenly I found a photo of mine that resembles like Honey!! which was done quite some time ago ... I've already had this in my mind, I think... short hair cut, ride a bike, be freeeeeeeeeee to venture! vrrooomm vrooommmm!

Life is simple but human being makes it complicated....ya cos we are not God. The beauty of being on this stage, when you are up here and when  you look down, you will be stunned by the monumental amount of strengths you have gone through to conquer the problems below.... However going through all those experiences in your life... You should be able to know how to live your life ... Just be simple. 

I came across this and feel grateful for such an invention!  Gotta support this! 

http://www.theoceancleanup.com/

Things happened for a reason

I always believed .. things happened for a reason.  We need to hold on to our hope.. we need to hold on to our faith.  With hope and faith, we can be what we want to be in our life... It needs a bit of patience.  We are being tested for our life.  We just need to pass through the test...

# 45 Lovie dovey breakfast

Little darling is going for a movie today with her school mates and she's very excited about it.  The movie is 'How to train your dragon 2'.   Breakfast is a must and so this lovie dovey home made burger is for her.  It's fried egg, cheese, cucumber with home made pork burger.  I've added spring onions, parsley, garlic salt, sesame oil, corn starch, pepper, cajun powder in the minced pork.   She always love to eat this home made burger and finished them all.  

I ride her to school in my two and a half years old pinky bicycle.  It's a drizzling day and we both put on our little rain coat.  Darling is a caring and observant girl.  When she saw my rain coat fell off from my head, she will help me to put it on.. when she saw my clothes were a bit exposed, she will help me to adjust it to make sure that I'm not too sexy :)  She kissed me good bye and happily said "I love you mummy" .. so sweeeeeet!

Last week was a hectic week, especially when I found that little darling have lice.  Doctor prescribed this 'Delice' herbal hair wash to get rid of lice and control nits infestation.  I spent my Thursday to help her to wash her hair and remove the eggs/nits with the fine toothed metal comb and also using my hands to remove them one by one.   After that is done, her hair needs to be washed with water added with vinegar.  I really hope this will not recur .... I really feel headache bout this kind of thing.  Yes, it does infect me toooooooo!  :(    No wonder I was having itchy scalp last week and I wonder why? Goshh.. headache isn't it? Especially I have such long hair.

Solo

Totally feeling furious, mad and irritated today!  Not everyone can understand me fully. Or I am not that easy to be understood! 

Well, if you want to do good deeds, by all means, do it from your heart sincerely!  'Accidentally' is not a word to be used again and again. I seriously hate that 'accidentally' word utter to me when it is not once but twice.  It shows how intentionally it was done and with a purpose.   It is just like, if you wanted to donate money, just do it quietly and not broadcasting it, especially to the one who benefited from it or even talked bout it to the beneficiary's friends.  You just want to claim credit for it and you just want to show how great you are or to impress that person! 

Sorry, you are totally wrong.  Beautiful things don't ask for attention!  A hero does not need to reveal his inner beauty! I don't need anyone to sacrifice for me!  I don't need that kind of 'pity me' kind of thing... It's totally a stupid thing to say or do!  Especially to GOD!

My life is mine! I've worked hard for my life!  I am still working hard for myself!  Not about any prayers in exchange for my life, excuse me!  It sounded ridiculously annoying when my life is in exchange.  I rather die then!  Instead of thinking God is working that way..... you are totally wrong! God will never want to take away our life! 

Your life belongs to your parents, the one who love you the most since young... have you ever thought of them.. what they really want from you.. is not sacrifice, is to love yourself.. take good care of yourself..  if you are not doing so, how can you take care and love others?


That feeling of 'owing' someone or worst when it's owing someone's life is just crazy!  What the hxxx !! Have you ever asked or use your brain to think, the other way round? I hate that 'owe your life' feelings! Totally offensive about this whole thing!

Can't you see the meaning of life? every life is destined and fated.... I do not need to be 'protected'! How much can you do? If it's destined to die, then it will.. no one can avoid, whether it's on the land or even in the open water.   It is such a silly thing to pay..  so to get protection? they might even think this 'girl' is protected by someone rich! OMG!!  Don't you realize that you are putting someone in danger!

At times, people may not realize that the best and the most suitable person is just beside them.  
I just feel tired.. just want to be Solo, live life 潇洒

The steps to life simplicity is to learn to ...Let go

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UyXqtVcVSeQ

# 44 Cutie face back in Singapore

We are back to Singapore! Little gal are so happy and couldn't wait to go for her movie tomorrow. 'How to train your dragon 2'. Did this cutie face for her this morning...simple but yet it made her smile happily. The fridge was totally empty without much I can use except eggs .... So this is it bread with egg and bread with kaya..

Painfully in love

Have you ever fall in love with someone's boyfriend or even someone's husband?

Was it wrong or was it right to fall in love with someone's man? Well, there's no right or wrong in loving someone.  Being a friend, I will understand that it is not easy for you to go through such relationship too when you are the third party. 

You have that butterfly feeling, wonderful feeling when falling in love. Everything looks so beautiful and you feel radiantly, attractively beautiful!  Everywhere you go, whatever you do .. he's on your mind, and you'll just smile without a reason when you thought of him.  Life feels so lovely and extremely happy in whatever you do.

Missing him was just a normal thing.  Kissing him passionately.. cuddle and hug him was something you longed for.... just a touch from him already makes your day so wonderfully happy ... for you long for him to be beside you.  Dating is an exciting event you looked forward.  How you wish he can always date you out. 

That was the beginning of a relationship... till you realise it is not just you and him.  You may slowly go back to reality.  You feel guilty, you feel sad, lonely, emptiness, depressed at times when he didn't care much or busy to even reply your message. You are uncertain if he is really serious about you or does he really love you and care about you. Jealousy may even erupt and your imagination about everything may even run wild. You explode without concrete reason or proof.  Unhappy and angry about it... You are actually hurting yourself!

You asked "Why?  why loving someone is so painful?"

Hot day

Hot and furious day .... Why you wanna trigger it? Can't you be a bit more sensitive and do things with your heart? Tolerance with limits!

Bro bought me a drink... Green tea red bean no sugar from Chatime. Gotta cool down

Maybe I was wishing .... S to at least click 'like' to show my photo was seen and msg was read  .... Yes I need your support and care ... Where are you? ^~^

Fear not

All the brave look that I put on... All the braveness that I've went thru  ...Can't cover me everytime I went thru this. Every 3 or 6 months that I have to face. I thought I have worked hard .... But what I see seems not. Am scared!  Feeling scared and thinking the worst ...Tears linger on my eyes again.. Deep into my heart ....

'Don't think too much unnecessary' I thought. Till you confirm it or an advice given.  Fear not... Calm down

I'm away

It's school holiday again!  I'm happy when it's school holiday as I can travel back to Malaysia to be with my family and enjoy the yummy food! 

Last week was a hectic week for me when little darling fall sick having viral fever and then passed it on to the little brother.  I have sleepless nights as usual, being a very 'super worried' mom :)  Well, fever is never to be taken lightly. This is in my dictionary.  I'm glad they are well on the day we left Singapore.  Now they are enjoying their day playing with their cousins. 

Just yesterday, we visited the Farm in the City at Sri Kembangan.  Little boy love the rabbit very much and keep on feeding them with food.  Suddenly, he said 'I want to die already!!... it's so stinky smelly" LOL and he still wanted to feed them.  Aren't he cute? 

Today in the office, saw some colleagues and 2 male colleagues asked me 'How can you be younger and younger?'  LOL .. am I ?  I only know that I look darker and darker and thinner and thinner!  

SL shared this with me..I think all dive buddy are very keen still on all those dive video/places/photographs after the dive. I feel amazed on how they can hold their breath for so long and the braveness in them.. cool! 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uQITWbAaDx0

Knowing that the 3 dive buddy are planning to go to Tioman coming Sept, shall I go?  I've got to get my dive buddy with me!  She has a bit of budget constraint.. but I hope she's able to go.  Even though our age gap is quite tremendously bigggg, but we do communicate and support each other quite often.. almost on a daily basis.  She's like a little sister to me :)

Sometimes what you wish for is different with what you get

SL would like to go to Tenggol Island, but well.. am not in the invite list.  I wouldn't want to ask also. To me, it's not bout the place .... it's bout spending time with them.

Stunning photos!

SL shared this yesterday..

https://fbcdn-sphotos-c-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-xpa1/t1.0-9/q77/s720x720/10313988_10203360570228871_8413716641493919362_n.jpg

 I shared this
http://www.mymodernmet.com/profiles/blogs/benjamin-von-wong-bali-underwater

seriously that's so beautiful! 

# 43 Papercutting .. not on paper but seaweed

That day's breakfast was just egg mayo.  I'm trying to experiment with seaweed ala paper cutting! Doesn't look too good huh? and a sweet heart in the middle for my darling.  Seaweed is darling's favourite snack!  Hmm but this isn't interesting enough :(

Bubble Ring in the sea

After the OWC, we had fun dive on the 18th May.  I think we need more practice. So, I did 2 fun dive.  First dive was at Sea Venture, Mabul Island and another was at Kapalai Cleaning Station till Kapalai House Reef, Kapalai Island.  I enjoyed this fun dive more than the OWC, of course.  The Dive Master was enjoying playing in the sea too and expert in doing the below! Isn't that unique?

Bubble ring in the sea!

Photographed by someone

Evening was the time to leave and back to Semporna.  Time past very fast.. am missing it so much.  Three of us checked in to Sipadan Inn II at Semporna and went out dinner with the Dive Master.  They are fun to chat with .. of course they keep on teasing the 'landlady'!  :P   very bad!!!

Our brunch of the next day........... what else?  guess?
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KFC again!!!!!!!! LOL   I do agree that KFC in Malaysia is yummier than Singapore!

I know I'll definitely miss this holiday.. but I feel very happy throughout the journey on the plane...there's no barrier there!  :P    am loving every moment of it! Wishing more to come