Sunday, 31 August 2014

# 50 Crabby in the house!

There's a crabby in the house! He always crab crab crab (cry cry cry) LOL even though he's already 6!  I wonder when will he stop....

Each kids will have their own character and attitude, so does their strength and weaknesses.  Crabby is very crabby but he is a very loving mouse!  My little mouse will always say these three things to me before he goes to sleep "mummy, remember to gargle "blue water" (oral rinse), exercise and pray to God".  As usual, before I go to sleep, I will brush my teeth, gargle with "blue water", do some exercise on the bed and pray to God.  However, sometimes I might forget to do those.. and he is my reminder every night, without fail.  Even at times I have to work late and told him to sleep first, he will then walked in to his room... Not long, he will walk out to the living room, and tell me these three important things.. isn't he cute and lovely!  

When he needed something, he will persuade for the things he wanted.  If your answer is NO, he will come back again few minutes later and beg you 'Please please mummy" with his hands in praying mode!  LOL  .. He is a boy full of determination, passion, persistency!   I only wish that he has a bit more patience :)

Friday, 29 August 2014

# 49 Happy bunny!

Happy Bunny is an impromptu idea came out from my sleep, again.  My mind always get active at night... so does this creative thinking too.  I don't have much time to really make a bento for my darling that day, as she's in a hurry to go out.  However, I still want to proceed with my bento and cheer up someone.  So I present this to Kelly, my housemate, who have been staying with us for almost a year soon.  She put this in her tupperware and it transform into a doggie :) cute right?

Some people may not realize that....Happiness comes from giving.  I find that very true.  Below story is not written by me and I've no idea who is the author, but it's something good to ponder.

This story is about a beautiful, expensively dressed lady who complained to her psychiatrist that she felt that her whole life was empty, it had no meaning.

So, the lady went to visit a counselor to seek out happiness. The counselor called over the old lady who cleaned the office floors.  The counselor then said to the rich lady "I'm going to ask Mary here to tell you how she found happiness. All I want you to do is listen to her."

So the old lady put down her broom and sat on a chair and told her story:
"Well, my husband died of malaria and three months later my only son was killed by a car. I had nobody... I had nothing left. I couldn't sleep, I couldn't eat, I never smiled at anyone, I even thought of taking my own life.

Then one evening a little kitten followed me home from work. Somehow I felt sorry for that kitten. It was cold outside, so I decided to let the kitten in. I got it some milk, and the kitten licked the plate clean.

Then it purred and rubbed against my leg and for the first time in months, I smiled. Then I stopped to think, if helping a little kitten could make me smile, maybe doing something for people could make me happy. So the next day I baked some biscuits and took them to a neighbor who was sick in bed.

Every day I tried to do something nice for someone. It made me so happy to see them happy. Today, I don't know of anybody who sleeps and eats better than I do. I've found happiness, by giving it to others."

When she heard that the rich lady cried. She had everything that money could buy, but she had lost the things which money cannot buy.

Sunday, 13 July 2014

Love, Faith and Hope

I saw this on the facebook page and would like to be reminded on this piece... that Love, Faith and Hope is what we need in this world to have a better place. 

In 1902, a professor asked his student whether it was God who created everything that exists in the universe ?
Student replied: Yes
He again asked: what about evil ?
Has God created evil also?
The student got silent....
Then the student requested that may he ask a question for him?
Professor allowed him to do so.
He asked: Does cold exist
Professor said : yes ! Dont u feel the cold dear
Student said: I'm sorry but ur wrong sir.
Cold is a complete absence of heat..
There is no cold, it is only an absence of heat.
Student asked again: Does darkness exist ?
Professor said: yes !
Student replied: ur again wrong sir.
There is no such thing like darkness. Its actually the absence of light. Sir ! We always study light & heat, but not cold & darkness.
Similarly, the evil does not exist.
Actually it is the absence of love, faith & true belief in God.
That student was Albert Einstien...!

Friday, 11 July 2014

Diving habits & Free diving

Earlier, I've been looking and reading these links..

I think cos of diving also, I feel like learning more things in my life.  Doing some of the things I would like to do.  I know I'm old in age, but am still young at heart! :)   During the diving course, the dive master couldn't believe my age when he saw my date of birth!   It's a good sign.. I haven't really age much according to my age.. LOL

Well, there's no age limit in learning.. as long as you want to learn, just go ahead! So that's what am doing. 

# 48 Bento on the plate - little girl

Month end was always a busy time.  There's also a project going on and makes me even busier. I'm glad I'm able to post this now. I don't really have the mood after the closing till now.  The month end weekend, little boy was sick with vomiting due to stomach flu.  I was busy the full day wiping, cleaning, cooking porridge, feeding him, checking his temperature as he has fever too.  I brought him, carrying him, 15kg now, to a nearby clinic.  I was all alone. He's very heavy to me now.. I can't really carry him when we came back then, as I've to walk up the slope. 

I felt pain looking at him vomiting still after taking the medicine.  He was also complaining pain and sick.  I tried to feed him probiotic but he vomited that too.. It's like full noon till almost night time, he has been very weak and feverish.  Only at night, he was better and I felt better then. 

During the noon time, I felt that sad feeling again... handling things alone, as if nobody wanted me.  It happened long ago, after my first child... maybe that is called depression stage?  I was alone too handling my first born during the weekends.  My mom doesn't wish to see my little baby then at home as she had already taken care of her during the weekdays.  So me and my little baby then stayed home alone.  Being a first time mother is not easy and worst still alone at home handling everything myself.  Maybe because of that, every time when I handle my kids alone, especially when they are sick, I feel very down. That 'not wanted / not being loved' kind of feelings haunt me again. 

I just need that care and love from someone, but nobody is around :(  it gets worst when not treated.  I will feel like even ending my life.  It was only treated when someone hug and kissed me, of course that has to come from my love ones!  :)   Also turning to the bible... which I've not been looking at it for some time.  I told myself I have to go back there to dig the treasure.. for peace of mind

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5,6

So today only am posting this... bento on the plate with rice, peas on the pod, capsicums, carrots, chicken.

Thursday, 26 June 2014

# 47 Elephant in the forest

43 Likes on my facebook for this piece of art ... am so happy :)  This idea just came about when I was half awake early in the morning.  It really needs a 'little light bulb' and inspiration to do this .. LOL

Of course my little darling saw this and was smiling, asking me how I did the trees.. I told her to check out that I slot in the little greens into the carrots by cutting a line in the carrots.  She then said 'You are so smart'!  LOL

I actually wanted to cook noodles or rice bento for her, but she told me just simple breakfast of bread will do and that's what she prefers. So that's how this come about.

Watched this at night.. SL sent this to me
While watching this, I really feel so awesome about the full video.. the fun in diving, the admiration on the fishes, corals, sea creatures.. everytime I look at the photos or videos of underwater creatures.. I just feel so speechless.... no words can describe how I feel. Mesmerized .... that urge of seeing them is more.. ok I got poison by SL! LOL

Wednesday, 25 June 2014


I seldom watch Hong Kong Drama nowadays compare to when I was in Malaysia.  I only watched it when I was sick or else when I was travelling or back from holiday to relax.  Recently I've just finished watching this drama  熟男有惑

After watching this movie, I really like a few characters in the movie..
Solo, on what he did quietly on a lot of things that helped his friends around but he never ever want to reveal it or claim credit for it
Kay, on her stubbornness ..but is actually her determination and persistent in things she believed
Ming, live his life freely and stylishly!
Honey, on all the things that she can do... driving a bike, dive, rock climbing, driving a boat, ...
Totally admire this 王君馨  .. especially this dance!

Saw this nice photos from facebook today.... really admire both the photographer and the model too..

Galileo Show 完全拆解裸模倒奶的攝影創作

# 46 Live for Love 為愛而活

I've finally found the song I've heard at Semporna.  Thanks to SL..  It's 張韶涵 為愛而活

Especially like these words...

Reality against imagination, there is wound but no blood
How do you get through the soundless nights?

Evasion has no exit, but who dares to admit their guilt?
Courage is the only escape

I'm in control of my future
I believe in tomorrow

I had a great night yesterday talking out what's on my mind these few days... Yes, being guilty.. feeling guilty is really worst feeling of all.  Unwanted things that happened but as if you get all the 'credit', is no joke.  You never asked for it.... 

Chauvinist, I can't stand.  Those who really know me, knows me well that I'm in control of my life.. what I want to do, what I like to do.. I don't give it a damn on what people talk behind of me or trying to talk as if they are right when they are wrong!

It is not about 'not appreciating' but it is about 'feeling sincerely guilty'... How can you live life with guilt...It is taking away my peace ..... I have to tell myself, not to be affected by this.  This 'guilt' will haunt me... I need that peace...

Live for love.. is to live your life better and healthier for your love ones!   Whoever love you, wishes to see you happy, healthy, live longer.... more than anything else.

Everyone is in control of their own life and future.

Tuesday, 24 June 2014

Life is simple

Proverbs 3:5-6 
Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight. 

Yesterday, I pretended I was Honey and did something that I've never done before. Fixing the washrooms light for the first time. I feel great being like a guy, able to do this things myself .... Maybe one day I don't need a man at all lol 

Suddenly I found a photo of mine that resembles like Honey!! which was done quite some time ago ... I've already had this in my mind, I think... short hair cut, ride a bike, be freeeeeeeeeee to venture! vrrooomm vrooommmm!

Life is simple but human being makes it complicated....ya cos we are not God. The beauty of being on this stage, when you are up here and when  you look down, you will be stunned by the monumental amount of strengths you have gone through to conquer the problems below.... However going through all those experiences in your life... You should be able to know how to live your life ... Just be simple. 

I came across this and feel grateful for such an invention!  Gotta support this!

Monday, 23 June 2014

Things happened for a reason

I always believed .. things happened for a reason.  We need to hold on to our hope.. we need to hold on to our faith.  With hope and faith, we can be what we want to be in our life... It needs a bit of patience.  We are being tested for our life.  We just need to pass through the test...

Thursday, 19 June 2014

# 45 Lovie dovey breakfast

Little darling is going for a movie today with her school mates and she's very excited about it.  The movie is 'How to train your dragon 2'.   Breakfast is a must and so this lovie dovey home made burger is for her.  It's fried egg, cheese, cucumber with home made pork burger.  I've added spring onions, parsley, garlic salt, sesame oil, corn starch, pepper, cajun powder in the minced pork.   She always love to eat this home made burger and finished them all.  

I ride her to school in my two and a half years old pinky bicycle.  It's a drizzling day and we both put on our little rain coat.  Darling is a caring and observant girl.  When she saw my rain coat fell off from my head, she will help me to put it on.. when she saw my clothes were a bit exposed, she will help me to adjust it to make sure that I'm not too sexy :)  She kissed me good bye and happily said "I love you mummy" .. so sweeeeeet!

Last week was a hectic week, especially when I found that little darling have lice.  Doctor prescribed this 'Delice' herbal hair wash to get rid of lice and control nits infestation.  I spent my Thursday to help her to wash her hair and remove the eggs/nits with the fine toothed metal comb and also using my hands to remove them one by one.   After that is done, her hair needs to be washed with water added with vinegar.  I really hope this will not recur .... I really feel headache bout this kind of thing.  Yes, it does infect me toooooooo!  :(    No wonder I was having itchy scalp last week and I wonder why? Goshh.. headache isn't it? Especially I have such long hair.

Wednesday, 18 June 2014


Totally feeling furious, mad and irritated today!  Not everyone can understand me fully. Or I am not that easy to be understood! 

Well, if you want to do good deeds, by all means, do it from your heart sincerely!  'Accidentally' is not a word to be used again and again. I seriously hate that 'accidentally' word utter to me when it is not once but twice.  It shows how intentionally it was done and with a purpose.   It is just like, if you wanted to donate money, just do it quietly and not broadcasting it, especially to the one who benefited from it or even talked bout it to the beneficiary's friends.  You just want to claim credit for it and you just want to show how great you are or to impress that person! 

Sorry, you are totally wrong.  Beautiful things don't ask for attention!  A hero does not need to reveal his inner beauty! I don't need anyone to sacrifice for me!  I don't need that kind of 'pity me' kind of thing... It's totally a stupid thing to say or do!  Especially to GOD!

My life is mine! I've worked hard for my life!  I am still working hard for myself!  Not about any prayers in exchange for my life, excuse me!  It sounded ridiculously annoying when my life is in exchange.  I rather die then!  Instead of thinking God is working that way..... you are totally wrong! God will never want to take away our life! 

Your life belongs to your parents, the one who love you the most since young... have you ever thought of them.. what they really want from you.. is not sacrifice, is to love yourself.. take good care of yourself..  if you are not doing so, how can you take care and love others?

That feeling of 'owing' someone or worst when it's owing someone's life is just crazy!  What the hxxx !! Have you ever asked or use your brain to think, the other way round? I hate that 'owe your life' feelings! Totally offensive about this whole thing!

Can't you see the meaning of life? every life is destined and fated.... I do not need to be 'protected'! How much can you do? If it's destined to die, then it will.. no one can avoid, whether it's on the land or even in the open water.   It is such a silly thing to pay..  so to get protection? they might even think this 'girl' is protected by someone rich! OMG!!  Don't you realize that you are putting someone in danger!

At times, people may not realize that the best and the most suitable person is just beside them.  
I just feel tired.. just want to be Solo, live life 潇洒

The steps to life simplicity is to learn to ...Let go

# 44 Cutie face back in Singapore

We are back to Singapore! Little gal are so happy and couldn't wait to go for her movie tomorrow. 'How to train your dragon 2'. Did this cutie face for her this morning...simple but yet it made her smile happily. The fridge was totally empty without much I can use except eggs .... So this is it bread with egg and bread with kaya..

Monday, 16 June 2014

Painfully in love

Have you ever fall in love with someone's boyfriend or even someone's husband?

Was it wrong or was it right to fall in love with someone's man? Well, there's no right or wrong in loving someone.  Being a friend, I will understand that it is not easy for you to go through such relationship too when you are the third party. 

You have that butterfly feeling, wonderful feeling when falling in love. Everything looks so beautiful and you feel radiantly, attractively beautiful!  Everywhere you go, whatever you do .. he's on your mind, and you'll just smile without a reason when you thought of him.  Life feels so lovely and extremely happy in whatever you do.

Missing him was just a normal thing.  Kissing him passionately.. cuddle and hug him was something you longed for.... just a touch from him already makes your day so wonderfully happy ... for you long for him to be beside you.  Dating is an exciting event you looked forward.  How you wish he can always date you out. 

That was the beginning of a relationship... till you realise it is not just you and him.  You may slowly go back to reality.  You feel guilty, you feel sad, lonely, emptiness, depressed at times when he didn't care much or busy to even reply your message. You are uncertain if he is really serious about you or does he really love you and care about you. Jealousy may even erupt and your imagination about everything may even run wild. You explode without concrete reason or proof.  Unhappy and angry about it... You are actually hurting yourself!

You asked "Why?  why loving someone is so painful?"

Saturday, 14 June 2014

Hot day

Hot and furious day .... Why you wanna trigger it? Can't you be a bit more sensitive and do things with your heart? Tolerance with limits!

Bro bought me a drink... Green tea red bean no sugar from Chatime. Gotta cool down

Maybe I was wishing .... S to at least click 'like' to show my photo was seen and msg was read  .... Yes I need your support and care ... Where are you? ^~^

Fear not

All the brave look that I put on... All the braveness that I've went thru  ...Can't cover me everytime I went thru this. Every 3 or 6 months that I have to face. I thought I have worked hard .... But what I see seems not. Am scared!  Feeling scared and thinking the worst ...Tears linger on my eyes again.. Deep into my heart ....

'Don't think too much unnecessary' I thought. Till you confirm it or an advice given.  Fear not... Calm down

Monday, 9 June 2014

I'm away

It's school holiday again!  I'm happy when it's school holiday as I can travel back to Malaysia to be with my family and enjoy the yummy food! 

Last week was a hectic week for me when little darling fall sick having viral fever and then passed it on to the little brother.  I have sleepless nights as usual, being a very 'super worried' mom :)  Well, fever is never to be taken lightly. This is in my dictionary.  I'm glad they are well on the day we left Singapore.  Now they are enjoying their day playing with their cousins. 

Just yesterday, we visited the Farm in the City at Sri Kembangan.  Little boy love the rabbit very much and keep on feeding them with food.  Suddenly, he said 'I want to die already!!... it's so stinky smelly" LOL and he still wanted to feed them.  Aren't he cute? 

Today in the office, saw some colleagues and 2 male colleagues asked me 'How can you be younger and younger?'  LOL .. am I ?  I only know that I look darker and darker and thinner and thinner!  

SL shared this with me..I think all dive buddy are very keen still on all those dive video/places/photographs after the dive. I feel amazed on how they can hold their breath for so long and the braveness in them.. cool! 

Knowing that the 3 dive buddy are planning to go to Tioman coming Sept, shall I go?  I've got to get my dive buddy with me!  She has a bit of budget constraint.. but I hope she's able to go.  Even though our age gap is quite tremendously bigggg, but we do communicate and support each other quite often.. almost on a daily basis.  She's like a little sister to me :)

Sometimes what you wish for is different with what you get
SL would like to go to Tenggol Island, but well.. am not in the invite list.  I wouldn't want to ask also. To me, it's not bout the place .... it's bout spending time with them.

Wednesday, 4 June 2014

Stunning photos!

SL shared this yesterday..

 I shared this

seriously that's so beautiful! 

Friday, 30 May 2014

# 43 Papercutting .. not on paper but seaweed

That day's breakfast was just egg mayo.  I'm trying to experiment with seaweed ala paper cutting! Doesn't look too good huh? and a sweet heart in the middle for my darling.  Seaweed is darling's favourite snack!  Hmm but this isn't interesting enough :(

Bubble Ring in the sea

After the OWC, we had fun dive on the 18th May.  I think we need more practice. So, I did 2 fun dive.  First dive was at Sea Venture, Mabul Island and another was at Kapalai Cleaning Station till Kapalai House Reef, Kapalai Island.  I enjoyed this fun dive more than the OWC, of course.  The Dive Master was enjoying playing in the sea too and expert in doing the below! Isn't that unique?

Bubble ring in the sea!

Photographed by someone
Evening was the time to leave and back to Semporna.  Time past very fast.. am missing it so much.  Three of us checked in to Sipadan Inn II at Semporna and went out dinner with the Dive Master.  They are fun to chat with .. of course they keep on teasing the 'landlady'!  :P   very bad!!!

Our brunch of the next day........... what else?  guess?

KFC again!!!!!!!! LOL   I do agree that KFC in Malaysia is yummier than Singapore!

I know I'll definitely miss this holiday.. but I feel very happy throughout the journey on the plane...there's no barrier there!  :P    am loving every moment of it! Wishing more to come

Thursday, 29 May 2014

Open Water Scuba Diving Course - May 13 to 19

My 2nd trip was not really a holiday but a serious course :) 

It was a long way to reach there too... from Singapore to Kuala Lumpur (KL) to Tawau, Sabah to Semporna and finally to Mabul Island :)   I felt weird when I was travelling from Singapore to KL as someone was acting like an acquaintance to me :(    well, seriously, I'm not used to these kind of treatment.  However I try to adapt and be quiet and read my book.  At times, I really wonder why......

I always like to dream of angels on the sea of clouds watching over us whenever I was on the plane.. but night view is different.  It was stunning with lots of colorful colors of the night. We reached the newly open airport KLIA2 at about 11pm. It's quite a long distance walk to the immigration counter, but after that, we got excited as it's a big shopping mall in the airport!!  We then headed to Starbucks and offloaded our bags on the comfy sofa.  I'm not a pig but I do need to sleep early and so for the first time, am doing this!  Sleeping there! :P  I can't imagine that I did that LOL  (that's not me!)

Little girl, Elaine reached on time to wake me up!  Elaine was someone that Kevin met online in a forum and who wanted to go for Open Water Diving too.  She's a young girl and brave enough to go for such adventure alone if we are not tagged along. She seems to be quiet and look cool without any smiles then.  KFC was our breakfast for the day.. yeahh! Someone couldn't wait to eat the yummy finger licking KFC! 

After arriving at Tawau, another 2 person joined in the private bus journey to Semporna.  It took us an hour to reach Semporna and to Big John Scuba Diving office. The rain was pouring half way of our journey and was still drizzling when we reached the office. Once we settled everything, we departed from the jetty to Mabul Island.  When we were cruising, I can see the crystal clear blue sea ... it's so beautiful.  Suddenly, we saw a big patch of rubbish floating at the sea! OMG what an eyesore... the sea was polluted!  It's sad to see such a scene.  I wish I can do something bout this... 

Throughout the one hour journey, I enjoyed very much the feeling of the breeze of wind blowing towards me.  I feel mesmerized to see the sea of clouds...some clouds resembles into an elephant opening his mouth, a bear who is sleeping with a big tummy and a little pig.. nothing can explained how I feel then.  Peace of mind.

Once we almost reached to the home stay, the view of the clouds and sea were indescribable.. it's awesomely breathtakingly beautiful!  Everyone was so eager to captured that scenery.. that most wonderful beautiful creations of God.  It's hard to tell where the sea ends and the sky begins.... stunning!  they are merged into one.  We can see a lot of star fish and seaweeds in the crystal clear blue water too.

(Suddenly I feel like going to the Heaven on Earth:  Bolivia's Uyuni salt flats at South America. Another spectacular place to see the sky and the ground emerged to one)

That evening assignment was none except at night, to watch the OWC video.  We decided to explore the kampung (village) together before night comes.  We can see the kids playing happily with the sand, playing kites, jumping here and there with the rubber idea what you called that? but I've played that before!  When night falls, you'll have free entertainment!  The locals will sit at the bridge, sang and played the guitar.

Actually am anxious about what we have to do the next day....scared, uncertainty, excited!  I sat down quietly on the wooden floor where the staircase down to the sea are.. looking up, admiring the starry sky,  feeling blessed ....such a romantic feeling then!  

First day of our challenge came!  After breakfast, we were briefed on the dive equipment and introduced to the BCDs (Buoyancy Control Device), cylinders, valves, Regulators  (first stage, second stage, Submersible Pressure Gauge-SPG, alternate air source), masks, snorkels, fins, weight systems.  Yeah we learn about common hand signals too!! so that we were able to communicate under the water :) It's fun LOL

Before each dive, we have to check this BWRAF - BCD, Weight, Releases, Air and Final Okay! before we jump!   I was so nervous as I'm afraid I can't remember everything.  I took a long time to even attached the low pressure inflator.. My right thumb was totally exhausted and everyone was already doing the rest. I told myself, NO! I have to be able to do that.. and I use my left thumb and pointer to push the low pressure inflator and yessss, I did it! 

There we go to our very first confined water dive at 5m deep.  Well, my heart was pumping fast but I told myself, breath in and out.  Remember, the most important thing is to breath and not hold your breath!  Ensure nobody was at the back of you before you jump backwards to the sea!  I was a bit panic to be pushed backwards to the sea. My very first time in the sea!!!!  I can't believe that am doing this! and at this age! LOL   yes, it needs a lot of courage, braveness, determination to do what you wanted. 

We did a few stunts in the water.  Breathing in and out through our second stage, clear a partially and fully flooded mask, the scariest part - took out our mask and wear it back and clear the water too!  I was like OMG?? what? so fast? I try to calm myself by breathing in and out slowly and steadily.  After all it's not that bad.  Another extreme stunt, was to remove the mask and swim for a distance and wear it back.  Wowwwwwww, can't imagine that.. we made it too!!! It's totally blurrrrr without the mask.. I can only see some colors of their dive suits.

We went to Paradise 1 again after the noon break and dive till 8m deep.  I was a bit surprised that we have to do that 'taking out mask' again! I've forgotten how to clear the water inside the mask :P  I was super panic then!  It took me quite some time and finally done!  Then we also did a few other stunts like recover our regulator hose from behind our shoulder, trying our hand signal to tell our buddy - out of air and need to breath using their alternate air source supply, etc.  Frankly, I do not really have the mood to see any thing then ... as I'm trying to be neutral in the sea, but I was almost always down to negative buoyancy.  We do saw some corals, sea turtles, fishes swimming around.. but I was not relaxed at all. 

I was relieved when we were back for dinner.. super relief, that I've gone through the most challenging part of the course, I thought.   The best moment of the day is getting to see the sky in the apps that someone was watching....  I feel extremely sweet and romantic at that moment... I melted!

Night came and we have to watch the video .. yes, feeling sleepy and exhausted for the day!  Once the music was played and songs were sang by the locals, I get into it again.. enjoying every moment of it.

Second day of our OWC!
Still feeling scared!  Extreme intense feeling.. my heart rate jump up! Trying to cool myself by singing in the boat.. "Let it go!... let it go!.. don't hold it back anymore!" to calm my heart beats, to sing my strength out! to comfort everyone on board who are feeling the same as me, especially Melody. She was with her boyfriend, Scott and she doesn't even know how to swim.  Don't you think that she's very very brave?

We went to Smart House Reef to dive till 12m deep, to Kapalai House Reef at Kapalai Island to dive till 16m deep and finally at Eel Garden to dive till 17.7m deep.  We did some training at the surface of the sea, eg. BCD removal, clear a snorkel of water without lifting our face from the water, exchange snorkel for regulator and vise versa, remove our weight belts, cramp removal on your buddy and yourself, tow a tired diver, etc.   Under the sea, we also did buoyancy control, disconnect low pressure hose, assume there's no air and take deep breath and 'Aaaaa' till you reach the top surface and orally inflate BCD, etc... The funny thing was, I always feel like swimming with my hands as if I'm in the pool...I have to remind myself, hands must not moved!  Fold your arms!  I was like racing under the water too.. flag my fin fast LOL!  It should be slow and steady... am so used to my weekly swimming challenge :P

At the end of this trip, the boat stopped about 300m away from our home stay and we have to swim with our snorkel and fin back home!  I feel nice swimming this way!  I can see hermit crab and star fish on my way home :)   Oh yeah, last thing was to float for 10mins on the surface of the sea.. I cant really float that long.  I was not relax.

Third day OWC
It's just exam day!!  However we did the 'you jump, I jump' stunt with the locals in the morning.  It's so fun..I've never done that before!  I did jump from this high, and also did many rounds at the lower stage.  I admired the way they jump and swim.. just like a fish! Very smooth and nice flow into the sea water.  To them, the sea was their land... as if they were just bracing walking through it. Life is just so simple yet happy.

Photographed by Kevin Su

Photographed by Kevin Su

After the exam, it's leisure time. Again we venture into the kampung! Walking longer distance to the Mabul Bungalow house and then to the other far end, Borneo Diver Resort. Snapping more photos around with the local kids.... and with the handsome locals (that we know) there too!  :)
Life is an adventure.. follow where your heart goes
 Kevin did a night dive that night with our diving instructor, John.  Elaine, as usual, like to whatsapp her friends.  I was sitting down at the 'jumping stage' enjoying my chat with a new friend, Lau that was there alone.  Listening to Lau's story was interesting.  We chatted for quite some time till the locals start to sing songs again.  I joined them in their singing and Elaine recorded the enjoyable event.  I really like to sing.. missing that very much! 

Night time we venture again into the kampung.. it's dark!  but that's where you can spot more stars!  Love to see the starry sky... and in the apps too.  Romantic night!

Photographed by Kevin Su

Superb underwater photograph

Just came back from my diving trip not long and so I'm very much addicted to those underwater creatures photographs.

I shared this page with my dive buddy today.. poisoning him/her with all the underwater creatures that are so beautiful!! 

SL shared this with me..  so wwow superb!  very nice shot! .... wish am the model! LOL   but I believe the model is not easy too, doing such stunt.....they are brave and terrific! Gosh, I got addicted to all these underwater photos.... The dive master told us that we can buy Canon G16 / G17 or else Olympus. SL said Olympus EP5 is roughly RM3k+ not inclusive of the underwater casing!  Expensive hobby! :P

Wednesday, 28 May 2014

Bajau people

From Wikipedia  "The Bajau also spelled as Badjau and also known as Sama or Samal, are a Moro indigenous ethnic group of Maritime Southeast Asia.  They live in a seaborne lifestyle, and use small wooden sailing vessels such as the perahu and vinta.  Bajau have sometimes been called the "Sea Gypsies"."

SL share this link with me today.....I watched it and wowwwwwwww!  one breath to 20m deep!  can't imagine how he can do that! So surprising to me... maybe it's not for them.  They have been living at the sea. They can even see clearly under the water.

Someone said he wishes to go to Palau.. which is more beautiful than Maldives. :)

# 42 Yummy burger

Back from holiday one after another, am sure you know how I feel?   yeah, please wake me up! LOL
Okay okay, am getting back slowly to cooking yummy breakfast already! I just posted in my other blog ( ) on what I cooked yesterday.  On top of cooking home made chicken nuggets, I also cooked porridge for little boy.  2 different breakfast for 2 little angels!  I didn't manage to take a photo of the porridge.. it's anchovies, dried scallops, dried oyster, minced pork and salty egg porridge.  Quite a lot of stuff right? :D  Trust me, it's super yummy this porridge! The funniest thing is .. the daddy put in the full cooked salty egg when I only use half a cup of rice for this porridge.  LOL !! It's superrrrrrrr salty. I've already cooked the salty egg and cut it into half so that he can scoop some to add in, but instead he scoop everything into the porridge! :P   He thinks this is egg and not salty egg? 

So today's breakfast ... taaaaaaaa daaaaaaaaaaaa...

Yummy burger on the plate, come and eat me before it's too late!  
It's fried egg, fried marinated pork (garlic salt, cajun powder, flour, pepper, soya sauce, sesame oil), cheese + cucumber.

Heyy.. little gal said yummilicious!  She hope I can cook this everyday!  Seems her sentence never changed when she likes her breakfast.  Well, I do feel happy....and kind of self satisfaction when she said it.. so I don't mind to hear that over and over again :)  Happiest mom ever!

Tuesday, 27 May 2014

Holiday at Kota Kinabalu - May 4 to 7

I was away for holiday twice this month!

yeahh my friend or even my sisters said "you just came back from Taiwan in March and now flying again and again?" Well, why not?   Anyway, one trip is planned, another was last minute added!

The first trip was from May 4 to 7 (Sunday to Wednesday) at Kota Kinabalu (KK), Sabah to meet my good friend, Maverick.  I wanted to go to Tip of Borneo and visit Kiulu River which is beautiful in the photos snapped by him. At the same time I wanted to see the orphanage home too at Kiulu River. Well, this was my 4th time visiting KK.

The scenery at KK was always so mesmerizing.. breathtaking.. relax and simple.  I enjoyed watching the sky at the Sutera Harbour.  Abundance of stars at the sky that makes me feel so blessed... such a heavenly view.  I still remember my cousin told me about stargazing.... but don't remember if we do any stargazing together or we did with his telescopes??   Maverick told me two of the stars name... I felt that I'm an idiot :P    LOL   as I've no idea about the stars.. 

Our usual breakfast was at Kuo Man Fish Paste Noodle Restaurant, the place where I fall in love with their noodles! Just yummilicious!
At Kokol hill, I can see the scenery of Mount KK cover partially by the sea of clouds at the bottom of the hill... looks like heaven is there!  It was so beautiful! On the way down, the sky was full of colors....such a lovely sunset!

I was given this special privilege to meet up and have dinner with Maverick's very good God brothers, David and Tay, and their wife, Agnes and Fong.   At first I was worried.  What should we talk?  It seems I worried unnecessarily.... they were friendly!  They were sharing about their own life stories.. very interesting, full of hardship, full of fun and laughter, very good advice about parenting on teenage kids too!

I always have that kind of feeling.. respect, admire and proud of those people whom go through hardship and be what they are now.  It's really inspiring.

I was also laughing, almost non stop, when Agnes talked about parenting on teenage kids.  "Well, you don't like his girlfriend, you also have to pretend you like her! Else you'll lose your son... You even have to buy her a gift as a gesture of welcoming her to your country, your home for the first meeting" said Agnes, describing how her friend talked to her on the phone.  It's very true.  In order to love your son, you need to respect his decision and try your best to be kind to his girlfriend, whether you like her or not  :)    Our topic of that night was very interesting.  We chatted until the restaurant closed!

Another day past, our journey continues to Kudat, Tanjung Simpang Mengayau and Tip of Borneo. It's a long drive, about three and a half hours, from KK city.  It gives us a lot of time to chat along the way to understand each other more, even though we've been friends for almost 20 years!

Trust me, it's a super hot day!  I was a burnt pig! :P  but I don't mind because I want to walk on the beach and capture you, Mr Sunshine!  Look at the beautiful sun that sparkles out in my picture.. Isn't that lovely!

At the Tip of Borneo, the view of the sunset was stunning!  The wind was breezing wildly as the waves pushes to the seashore.  It's where the South China Sea meets the Sulu Seas flowing from the east.  Sunset was gone not long.. I wish it can stay longer... wish I can stay longer in KK too!


Read a news about this 8 year old girl dies in her sleep. It's such a sad event that happened to the family.  At times, I thought, how as a parent are able to go through such ....

I know a lot of things are not within our control and we just have to accept and comfort ourselves.. it's fated.

You can be sad.. but you should not let it be too long... consider people who are around still and who love you. 

Monday, 12 May 2014

Poem from my friend to me :)

My friend was creative.. he did this poem for me!   Thank you dear Pang Yau!

My Dear Pang Yau Fennie
You're so funny
Can you spend on me a penny
So I can have a cake which is yummy

Sunday, 4 May 2014

# 41 Tic Tac Toe

Still remember this game that we always play when we were kids. So did this bento for little darling. She said its cute!

In any games we play, no matter you win or lose, it doesn't matter. What matter most is, we had fun. It's the process that you enjoyed, not the outcome. You may lose today, but you may win the next time or wise versa. So the important thing is be happy with any games you play. 

Happy weekends!

Saturday, 3 May 2014

Happy moments to be treasured

Every little happy moments encountered is my treasure.  I wished to write it down.....but spending time with people I care and love are more important than blogging.  Priority takes place.

A lot of happy moments and of course, I do have unhappy quiet time too.  Somehow, I choose to write happy moments mostly in my blog. I think I never write anything that's unhappy here, did I? :)   As I believed, happy memories are to be remembered and unhappy incidents, should be forgot!

Yesterday was Labour day and my housemates planned to go to Gardens by the Bay.  When little boy saw them going out, he stand in between the door, not letting the boy (whom little boy called Kor Kor - brother)  to go out with the girl (whom little boy called Jie Jie - sister).  Little boy said "Jie Jie cannot go out.. " ... "or else you stay here or else Jie Jie stay here". When Kor Kor carry him to go together, just to play with him, he started to be naughty and then cried.  I went over to carry him and told him to say bye bye to them both.  He cried and said "I love Jie jie and Kor Kor' .. and continue his cry.  I find him very funny.  Little boy always like this Jie Jie very much.  He always like to hold her hands, sit on her, hug her and play with her.  He will say "I want to marry Jie Jie!"   He's such a cute little boy.. but he's growing so fast.  I still miss his baby smell..  Every night he will asked me 'Have you gargle with the blue water (the oral rinse)?  when I was on the bed.  Next, he will said "exercise mommy"! Lol. I'll normally exercise on the bed, just lay down and legs up a few rounds. Got a big hugh thigh as my gal claimed! 

For us, we had a fun day yesterday. Full day of activities! We had 'buy and sell' play using real money. I was getting little boy to be ready for his primary one.  He needs to know how to use money to buy food. So you can see below are the things am selling LOL. When I said 80cents, he gave me 50cents and told me there's no 30cents :D  ( It's so cute ) I teached him to add both 20cents and 10cents.  After this was scrabble, then UNO, then arts time, then dinner, playground time and finally back home to complete our arts.. What a fulfilling day of spending quality time with my love ones. Hope you do as well.

Oh ya forgotten to mention, little boy helped to wash the dishes at noon. Little gal helped too at night. Aren't they lovely :)  Mommy love you both!!! 

Monday, 28 April 2014

# 40 Will you get bored with this daily?

During the weekends, a lot of unforeseen things happened. I took the wrong house key and also the car broke down half way.  I was totally feeling and asking 'why?' everything seems not smooth as planned.  Aren't this miserable?  Well, how bumpy my day was, it was still a very good day for me. I was able to meet my best friend and spend some time to chat. 

So here's my happy moment with my little darling early in the morning. She asked me to make this egg mayo ala sushi for her everyday! I said with a smile 'you'll be bored if this is your daily breakfast!'

Saturday, 26 April 2014

Lovely day today!

Today is a lovely day!  Woke up early and pick up my eldest sister from the LRT station at Sri Petaling, Malaysia. yeah I'm back to Malaysia!! 

 Actually yesterday night, was very happy to be able to catchup with mom, 4th sis, 7th sis and my brother after I was back from Singapore.. and chatted till midnight!!  It is always fun to be able to spend time with them and hear from them things that happened. 

Today was also a relief day to hear from this important person, that I've scheduled to meet.  Completely feel good... feel comfortable... feel relief

Also meeting a fren, going to meet another fren too later..  so happy to be back!

Thank God for this arrangement :) 

Friday, 25 April 2014

# 39 Little minions

Little boy was having a party at the kindergarten and I made this for him to bring few months ago.  He was extremely happy then as he likes minions so much!!!

I used my Iphone to snap these.  Well, you can see am not a good photographer :)  My minions also doesn't look that fantastic,but the most important thing is, he's happy and he loved this so much.  Of course his classmates were so impressed to see this too!  Suddenly he became famous with this bento I did. LOL

# 38 Let's go little chicky! Chirp chirp chirp

Let's go little chicky!  yeahhh.. it's me calling my little ones to go go go with me.. go to school!  wake up early, have a happy good breakfast to start your day before heading to school.   Little darling said this is so lovely and cute :)    Every compliments she said, happy facial expression from her, just made my day!  This is the self satisfaction that I had as a mom.  

Knowing that I've to leave on Friday night to go back to Malaysia, little darling cried when we were on bed.  She doesn't like me to go anywhere without her.  She cried saying "Mummy, can you please promise me not to go anywhere without me, or else you don't go at all'  ..... I'll hug her tightly, seeing her crying and tell her 'I'm sorry darling, but I've to go and do something, and I'll be back on Sunday.. I'll be back very fast"  Somehow when daddy went off, she's fine! but not me .. LOL  She said "I love you very much!"     I love you too darling!  You are my precious darling.

Wednesday, 23 April 2014

A good colleague cum friend

Recently a colleague from India has noticed my Whatsapp status.  I thought nobody noticed that or even care on that. I was very mad that day.  I hope that 'someone' read it but that 'someone' didn't.. Nobody will ever read Whatsapp (WA) status.. except this colleague.  

He seems to have this habit to check out on WA status of his friends.  That's how he knew it and asked me what happened.  He even asked me to change the status then but I refused, telling him I hope that person will read it.  The next day, I still didn't change it.. till I feel okay to replace it.

From then onwards, we talked more. We are working for the same system and so we liaise with each other frequently. Nowadays, I will teach him some cantonese words like Pang Yau!  Chou san! and Joi Kin!  and this is used daily in our messaging now.  

I've been sharing with him what I did and /or thought of doing... he said "You have a wide range of interests PY (Pang Yau)... you are different "  I laughed.  Actually I like to dance to sweat out and want to learn some foreign language as I wish to travel to those places.  It's happier to do things that I like, focus on what I want to do in life....I do not wish to think too much and think too far.

"You keep yourself enthusiastic every time.. I like that attitude.  Time to get motivated from you!" he said. Well I told him, life is short and I just feel like wanting to do a lot of things .... He said "Am a bit lazy by nature... but do get very much motivated from you.  So I like to talk more with you". 

I replied "That's good hahaha.. life is short!'.  "I talk with my wife more.. then I think it's cause of you" he said. Communication is vital in every relationship.  Whether she's your girlfriend or wife, she would sure like to talk with you more, to understand you, to know what you've been through for the day, as she loves you, care about you, and wants to be your listener or the other way round.  

"I wanted to say this from long time...I don't really talk much. By nature, I am not a talkative person" he said.  I was surprised!  Oh then I gotta go down from the bus.. and last piece of advise "Kiss and hug your wife more!  He laughed and said "why that piece of advise? hahahah"  I replied "All wife need that! I'm just reminding you LOL".   "You are really a wonderful friend" he said. 

All these are chatted in Whatsapp when I was in the bus.  He caught me at the right time.  Working hours, not that free to chat.  I think he is a wonderful friend indeed.

Thank you for your caring, Pang Yau!  Am feeling blessed

# 37 Little elephant

Elephant elephant where have you been?  I'm just right here in the tupperware!  :) 

Little elephant was done on a weekend longgggggg time ago.  LOL 
I was prioritizing on my time then to do all the housework, my job, bento and taking care of my little darling alone then.

Tuesday, 22 April 2014

Friendship in Singapore

I told myself, I've to go to the office once a week, I really make it a point to go...
I would always date this colleague for lunch, if she's available.  She is someone that I can talk with personally.  I'm glad that I found someone whom I can really talk with about everything.  I've been sharing my real life story with her and she's been sharing her story too. Working from home can be a bit bored.  You don't get to see people and talk! I think I just like to dress up nicely with little high heels and enjoy the food around the office.  Yes, I like to look GREAT! :D  and talk talk talk talk

In life, at times we have to tolerate that someone ..... till one day, you found something suspicious or even concrete proof, it's really intolerable, it's really not what you want, you still have to stay calm. 

I hope what I've shared with her can give her some thoughts on her life.  It's always acceptance, forgiveness and forget... if there's LOVE! 

Monday, 21 April 2014

# 36 Come let me give you a hug! said Olaf

This morning breakfast was a simple yet fast-to-cook breakfast! It's honey baked ham with cheese and cucumber!  Decorations, as you can see, baby carrots, black olives, little red nose of tomato, the smiley ham!

This was an impromptu design! Just thought that I have lots of carrots, black olive and tomatoes for my salad and voilà !  Isn't this happy!!!  

My darling was happy to see Olaf!  It really looks like giving her a hug in the early morning.  :D  When darling is happy, mommy is happy too! 

It's even happier when darling came back with a little 'Thumbs up' note that her teacher gave her!  It says "SQ, You always take the initiative to do things without being told.  Good Job!'

I'm so proud of her :) 

Friday, 18 April 2014

# 35 - I will always love you

I went to the office on Tuesday and told myself that I should go to the office at least once a week.  I feel that I am happier meeting colleagues and chit chat about everything!

I like to dress up, look nice, smell nice.. and walk in my high heel shoes! Anyway, it's not very high though.. LOL.  Since moving to Singapore, I've to walk a lot as I don't have a car.  So I can't be wearing a 3 inch high heels anymore!  What a sad thing!  :( 

I just gotta get used to it.. and I think somehow I got used to wearing flat shoes.  However, once a while I'll still dig in to those highhhh heels 

The best thing for today is.. I came back home and my two lil' angels offered a massage for me!  YES!, it's me .. so lucky man, rite?!  Lil' darling massaged my shoulder and lil' boy massaged my leg on the bed.  

No matter what happened, what they have been thru out there, I will always love them!  

Mummy will always protect you! LOVE YOU!

P/S Guess what? Darling asked "Mummy, can I have this type of cute breakfast every morning?"  :P  I'll try my best :D 

Thursday, 17 April 2014

No freedom! cried lil'darling

Last 2 days, while having our dinner, lil'boy was unhappy when he was asked to finish all his rice.  He complaint that he's too full and walk away from the dining table to switch on the TV.  Daddy was trying to encourage him to finish his meals first but lil'boy actually doesn't want to finish the vegetables! 

There comes lil'darling, trying to help to persuade her lil'brother too in finishing his bowl of rice.  Somehow, when daddy and I told lil'darling that it's all right (maybe we have said something not right here?) Out of sudden, lil'darling started to feel unhappy and said 'I'm just trying to help and am helping you guys!.. don't you see that? ' 

Daddy was trying to explain why we don't need her to intervene, but she burst into tears and cried.  "Why you always let brother choose his way? Why you always give in to brother and not me? I don't have freedom!.. You didn't give me the freedom!!"

Maybe we have forgotten about her intention, but thought of doing our way.. my way, that is to spoon feed the last few scoops, in a playful little manner when talking to lil'boy.  That is my usual trick to get him finish his rice.  However, lil'darling feels that we have given lil'boy too much 'freedom' in choosing what he wants to do.  We may have forgotten to respect her and support her in helping us to educate lil'boy.  She may wants to have the authority too and the leadership in guiding her brother.  This is also one of the freedom.. freedom to speak! freedom to lead!

Being a parent, is not easy.  Especially when you have more than 1 kid, you have to be even more sensitive to the 'fairness / equality' that they want from you.  She may be comparing her lil'brother who gets most of the freedom, whereas when she is not behaving well, we might say 'if you are not 'doing this' then you cannot go to your friend's house next time'.  We will not say this to lil'boy as he does not even go to any of his friends house since he's much younger.  

We may have imposed a stronger disciplinary rules or way of talking with her compare to lil'boy, knowing that she's already 9.  It's evidently true that lil'darling have been very mature all the while since young and we have treated her or may have expected her to behave and act maturely.  We may have oversee that she is still a child that needs that special care in the words she said or do.  

I've to remember that she needs me to listen and respect and support her.  

Wednesday, 16 April 2014

# 34 Fast breakfast

Fast breakfast is what I need everyday early morning for a primary school girl .. and cheese is the easiest, fastest of all.  Of course the deco tooks a bit of time LOL .... This was done some time back. Just want to get it posted in my blog too.. :)

# 33 Kisses from the fish to the CAT!

I've encouraged someone to continue to write her blog and this actually reminded me.. myself that I should also continue that.   I should also do more on Arts & Crafts.. that is my passion.  I should spend more time with my kids rather than thinking too much.  I should also mind my own business (MYOB!) as I've been 'kepoh' for people's life.. that I feel guilty that I've said something wrong, or predicted something wrong that causes trouble.  Caring too much may not be good.  Thinking too much too.  

I just wish to see everyone at home happy eating dinner together and chat .... it's just so simple yet difficult to achieve at times.  I miss the time when we sit down and chat. 

Yes, I miss some surprises too in a corner of my house.. I longed for it

Today, I've started to do something for my lil darling to make her happier in the morning.  This morning, I did this peanut butter bread and a cup of Milo (her favourite) for her breakfast.  Yes Kisses from the fish to a CAT... I miss your kisses!  Even though the CAT eats the fish.. but fish still wants to kiss you! LOL